|The Open Cup|
I cannot begin to imagine what else Joyce will find to challenge and nudge me to consider, yet...according to the Index, there are four more weeks.
As I begin these moments of reflection on The Open Cup, I listen again to one of my favorite songs, As The Deer AMEN and AMEN.
God of Abundance, help me remember your presence that has grace my life this past week, as I reflect back on this week of Openness. AMEN.
I invite you to reflect along with me...journal...leave a post, OH! By the way, the posts come to my g-mail account and I have periodically replied from the g-mail account, not realizing they are not going anywhere. You do remember I am a novice at this blogging thing! Feel free to check back, another might have built on something you have written...we can blog together and learn from one another, just as the Wednesday Lunch Bunch.
"What is some of my inner clutter?"
I find myself resisting referring to some of my stuff as "clutter", yet this week I have come to acknowledge that whether it is "good" or "bad" in the eyes of the world, it is still clutter that is keeping me from the one thing I most desire.
Early on I shared a quote from Eat, Pray, Love:
"God dwells within me as me."As I consider this thought again, not only does my clutter keep me from God, it keeps me from my deepest...my true self. How sad that I, and many others, race through our days without ever stopping to acknowledge "me".
I hate it because I do not like to produce shoddy work...BECAUSE it makes me "look" bad....in the eyes of the world.
Ummm, San, who is it you live for? Remember that Audience of One?
That kind of thinking is also part of my inner clutter.
"How do you experience 'listening' in your prayer?"
Robert Wicks really caused me to pause: "When we pray, how often do we say: 'Speak, Lord, for your servant is listening'? More often, I think, we say: 'Listen, Lord, for your servant is speaking!"
I have become much more aware of my prayers this week! The notion of giving God a laundry list of "to do".... I do not want my prayers to be a list. It may take more than another four weeks, yet my awareness has been heightened, which is one small step.
"Does the cycle of 'emptying and filling' relate to your life experience?"
Again, a visual image that caused a deep ah-ha to rise up in my heart. I am a farm girl. I understand and appreciate how everything in nature has a cycle of being empty (dormant) in order to once again be full (fruitful)...yet I had not thought of connecting that understanding to my own heart...my own soul.
"Be empty, and you will remain full..." ~ Lao-Tsu
"What helps me to trust God?"
Things like this study....knocking some awareness into me!
I trust by learning to see the grace that is around me and within me. I trust by re-learning I cannot live life on my own. Again, that illusion of control that is illustrated so well within this comic:
Seems as though I remember something about TRUST being the foundation of LOVE. The more I am intenational about be present with God, the more I am aware of his presence throughout all my life...the more I will be able to let go of my fears and insecurities and be with him...trusting.
How great will that be!
"Have you been able to find solitude in your life?"
Geeze, Joyce....you are not a miracle worker and I am a slow learner!
Still, I am in such a different place this morning than I was six days ago. I feel as thought I have been stretched, yet I think I have been emptied a little instead of being made larger in order to hold more.
In our Western thinking we often think of being "Supersized". It is a very different notion to be "Emptied" in order to be more "Open".
|"I" am becoming the unique and gifted|
child God created me to be!